My Sassy Girl

[Now Playing: Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse]

I used to think that mellow dramatic movies are fictional. I mean, I’d rather believe sci-fi movies than those mushy love stories. Until..

September 26, 2006, 8:30-9:30am. There she was standing across the street. I waved at her, she smiled back. Plans were made the night before. She needed someone to talk to. I held her hand, I felt her sadness. She got engaged recently to some guy who she fell out of love with. Hours passed by, all I did was cheer her up. I loved her.. In fact.. I still do.. I know she feels it too.. But what must be done? Things between us are much complicated now. I myself don’t know what she wants to do with her life, with me, with us. I don’t know where do I stand. I’m just holding on to my vow, “Never will I leave her, Come what may..”

(cut) “I don’t kiss and tell”

She wanted to end this so called affair. I asked her to look into my eyes “Sabihin mo hindi mo na ako mahal.” and she did. I know she lied, she faked it for me to hurt no more. But I’m not that stupid.. I know. But still it hurts.. I mentioned some things that were not supposed to be said. I hurt her as much as she hurt me. She left.. Then I came to my senses. I shouldn’t have done that. I shouldn’t have hurt her.

“Ale, may nakita po ba kayong babae na naka pink na kakalabas lang?” “Ay oo, kakasakay lang nya.”

The world is spinning round under my feet, I’m drunk. Caught a ride, gave my everything to the driver “Manong pakibilisan may hinahabol po ako, huwag na kayo mag pick-up ng pasahero. bayaran ko na lang po kayo.” Traffic.. I can catch up by foot.. And so I did. I ran miles, toxicated, de-hydrated under the scorching heat of the sun. Looked at the places she’d probably be. I’m desperate, my feet starts to numb.. I ran and ran ‘til I almost blacked out.. I fought fatigue.. I won’t give up.. This won’t compare to the beating I always get everytime she feels like hitting me.. And more.. She’s too precious to be lost.

Searched three cities in a condition you wish you’d never be in. I’m on the verge of giving up.. breaking down.. Then by God’s mercy.. My phone rang.. “Pren nandito siya sa amin.” Standing before the referee’s 10 count knock down ended, I rushed to our friend’s house.. “Wala sila dito na sa park sila.” That means I’m gonna take another mile run. But I won’t give up. This is my last stand, my last chance for true love.. May death come upon me, but my soul won’t give up the race. she’s too precious.. too precious..

Then I saw her.. I saw her face.. not of anger and hatred.. but of worry, concern, caring and love.. Numb.. I fainted.. Before I totally blacked out.. I felt my head on an angel’s lap.. her soft hand on my face.. And the strong aura of love that never faded.. Exhausted, I smiled.. Now I can rest in peace..

“She is too precious.. too precious.. I wish she knew..”